you are a part of someone else, you gotta go find you're shining star....

Tuesday, January 15, 2002

 
i am realllly confused now. i thought i had it all sorted out, but then i went to school today and i was sitting in english between sterling and david and suddenly something in me just changed. i was listening to blink 182 on sterling's walkman, eating popcorn [which the guys were flinging], writing saul a letter, watching farenheit 451 [gay ass movie], taking david's hat from him and pinching his cheeks, getting annoyed with joe *errgh!* hes so annoying.... [but yea, im a multi~tasker]. and i was telling the boys about my stupid problems and suddenly it all seemed so simple, but id rather make it hard. woa thats like that lauren hill song. it could all be so simple, but youd rather make it hard, loving you is like a battle, and we both end up with scars. hehe...so then i finally made my decision, right there when i least expected to. sooh yea... that was our last english class, except for finals day. im gunna miss everyone *sad face*. that class was hella kewl... and mr kramer's the tightest teacher, we dont do shyt in that class. oh well its all good, *smile*. oh, at lunch we were right outside rotten's and david was making fun of rosie and me cuz i said "wuddup dawg" to row-z over the talkies. *wow* big deal! the guys know me and rosie are always sayin weird things and making weird noises [wuawhuah]. lol, and that we dont take ourselves seriously, so im surprised that stood out in his mind. jeez. the guys do understand us most of the time, and if they dont they still laugh cuz they think its cute or "something"... and i kNoW they think we're funny so i dont even know why they try to play it off and try to make us feel stupid! :P. *smile*. yea, and then at the end of lunch, the five of us were standing there and tino and lee come over for a couple min. to say wassup and it felt like back when we all started kickin it together everyday like in september/october!!! i mean, seeing all the group together. the only 2 that were missing were the other david and danny [he moved to nevada]. those were the days. so yeea, it was pretty kewl when bastien pointed it out. then drama was tight... we had the last 20 min. of class to ourselves. sebastien got an A- on his final! *yeay* im proud of him. micheal wasnt in class cuz he had to go to the dentist... HAh! oh, speaking of the losers [seabass, mike, and david]; last night they stopped by my house like at 9:30p.m. and we were on my porch talkin for a little while. bastien was in his work uniform :P. david was making me laugh cuz he said my house looks like the perfect place to shoot a porn movie... lol, ive never thought so but whateva. then after the guys stopped by i talked to posie on the phone and then jerm.... but back to today.... before drama i gave saul the completed letter and after school when i saw him he said he threw it away! what a liar!! :P. then he started hitting me with my binder and kicking me... everytime we see each other i slap his face and then he starts beating up on me! lol. its all playful though. mahn i hope my dad says i can go to row-z's after school tommorrow! were plannin on walking to her house [wit the boys], then eating, practicing our lines a lil bit [were doin a scene together for drama], and then going to the school to talk to our councelors *yuck*. its aiite though, i dont wanna end up with retard classes. i want a class wit david cuz being in class with him is helluv fun! but i doubt that will happen cuz he showed me his schedule and i dont like any of the ones hes taking... oh well. it dont matta. oh, i talked to jermaine a little while ago. we cleared some stuff up. were friends now and thats it, but hes coo with it. :P n/eway im goin to finish this up cuz i wanna go watch a movie. ***NEWS FLASH**** just before i wrote that last sentence, david and sebastien stopped by. david was trying to get me to show bastien how i flip my hair fast to both sides when it gets messed up. he says it looks hella fine [*ahem* right]. but he swears! any girl wit long hair like mine can do that! and we also talked about the way i turn my feet in when i sit [yea, sebastien notices things no one else ever would], and toilet paper, daves, and chong, which are really code names for *somethings*. i just finished talking to them on my porch for like 20 minutes. school starts at 10:15 tommorrow so im gunna meet them around 9:20am in front of rottens and were gunna kick it awhile before school, maybe go to mickey d's. so yea thats it for now... *good nite* :]